Just getting back on the boards and read your current "mood".
I am sorry to hear of your loss. I truly do know what you are dealing with at this time. I lost my dad to cancer last month. I got to ride his Ultra Classic in his Patriot Guard escort. I find myself wanting to send him an e-mail from time to time as common interest topics hit my inbox. I have wanted to call him and discuss current events or ask how things are going lately. I wish to inform him of how life is treating me as well.
This year has brought forth the passing of my dad, a divorce, a career change and many more VERY trying life situations. We can survive these events by keeping our friends close and sharing our emotions.